Hi guys. Long time, no see. My life’s been going downwards. And downwards. And only down. I’ve had a very hard time, and I still struggle, but it’s time to get my habbits back on track. Wich means, I’m barely training anything and I need to start again.
About the food, I don’t know what I’m going to do. The past weeks I’ve either been eating nothing or eating one meal a day. Not good. I don’t know if I’m going to do it the healthy way, or do it how I’m approaching right now.. surviving on some kiwi’s and yoghurt. It’s not a challenge for me, not at all. The only problem is how my mom goes about how I have to eat etc. I don’t want to eat. Food makes me feel bad.
I’m starting tomorrow. I don’t know how much I’ll go to the gym this week. But it’s vacation, so I’ll try to make it work because next week will be VERY hectic.
I hope to start with my day 1, day 2 etc very soon and I hope you guys wait for me! Because I’m ready to start again.
Soo everything’s been such a mess lately. I was doing so well, but then everything suddenly started to go wrong. I’ve been up and down with my eating lately, and I kind of failed yesterday again. And today, I was 100% determined. No sugar, no flour, nothing bad. I’m getting skinny. That was my thoughts. I ate scrambled eggs, veggies, fruit and drank diet coke. And then the dinner came. Pizza. I’m so weak. I’m not addicted to food or anything, but I’m just too lazy to go and make my own food. Of course, I had steamed broccoli as well, but the pizza.. Not good. 3 pieces of pizza, and now I feel like it’s the world’s end. I feel terrible. Oh well, since I showered this morning it won’t harm if I cut some. I mean, then it won’t sting as much next time I shower.
I’m going to the gym in an hour. I want my fat off. And I’ll do anything to get rid of it.
Soo, I’m getting sick. Again. I’ve been eating good today so far, but I think I’ll try doingn this tomorrow instead. I’m sorry, but I really need something like noodles. It’s the only thing to keep my throat somehow decent.
- Kiwi (30kcal)
- Yoghurt (29kcal)
- Baked salmon w/steamed broccoli (179kcal)
I don’t know how many calories it is in the noodles, but it’s not healthy , that’s for sure. I’m sorry for being such a disappointment everybody. I can’t go to the gym either, I feel really really bad.
So, after way too many days of sliding out of routine and eating shit; I’m going to do this, this is my third try, but this time I will make it, no matter what. I know it doesn’t sound convincing since I failed the two first times; But now I’ve really realized it. I might not be fat or overweight, I might not even be chubby, but I’m untrained and therefore my body doesn’t look nice; My belly would look WONDERFUL if I had it tighter. But now it’s slobby, and it hangs there, and I don’t even believe half of it is fat, it’s just skin. But I have to train to make the skin tighter. And I will. Because I want to be in best shape when summer comes, or more correctly, I WILL be in my best shape when summer comes. So tomorrow is day 1, and I’m going to the gym. Haven’t been in the gym in 10 days, and it makes me SO ashamed. But now I’m on it again.
